No one made me to Gamble I went gambling when I felt emotionally vulnerable. I was in effect was going to Gambling and giving complete strangers my holiday nice cloths food and say that I did not deserve nice healthy things in my life.
That when I went to Gambling I was wasting so much time and money I was in effect working for nothing. The recovery helped me understand that Gambling was unhealthy for me. I feared being honest because as a child when ever I was honest I was punished for it.
The more I gambled the more fears grew in me, with each lie came further fears I did not understand. In time the more I gambled the more I gave up faith and hope in myself.
